Sup peeps? How goes it? Hopefully well for all of you, I know some are still trying to recover from the weekend, sucks to be you but I hope you all feel better tomorrow morning, sleep and water do wonders sometimes.

Well, last night was a good damn time. Props to the guys next door for doing what we can't seem to do here anymore. I'm still having a hard time believing that 2 kegs and 650 jello shots are gone...650! damn ppl! But it lead to a hell of a good time. I of course got my drink on, but tried really hard to pace myself and not make a repeat of the past two weekends where I ended up paying tribute to the porcelain gods at the end of the night. I was very successful and proud, I've learned that its a good thing not to get totally retarded because then you don't miss any of the party. I was there til the last person left I believe which was somewhere between 4 and 5...things were just crazy, there was jello shot after jello shot, and then ppl takin body shots left and right, keg stands of course, then the oh so always wanted by guys...girls making out! I had to drink to this and stand back and watch while all of the guys were hootin' and hollerin' (big suprise) about the happenings. Odd thing I guess though is that usually it takes a dare or somethin for this to take place, not always, but I would think usually...but these two just wanted to make out I guess, so they did...multiple times...what can ya do? Keep drinkin, that's what I did...always my solution huh?

Anyway, I really don't have anything to say...school is goin pretty good, had a couple take home tests last week, one of which I aced! Kick ass for me or somethin. I wish I could spread this motivation I've stumbled upon to everyone else I know that is struggling this semester. It amazes me how many ppl go through what I did last semester and how depressed and unmotivated college students are. It's a tough world for us college kids, and it always seems no one cares, or the right ppl don't care when you need them too...but you must never forget there is always someone, you are always loved and always supported...with that you should always want to prove to those people that you have somehting to offer and you're not a failure. If nothing else, God is always watching, you may not have the perfect life style that he approves of, but he's always watching you, and when he see's you come through these depressing times, he's proud of you. He never looses faith in you even if you loose faith in him. Maybe I'm not the right person to ramble about this but this is how I feel and believe. After the semester I had last semester I've realized a lot of things, and a lot of ppl know the semeter I'm talking about, and have been there, or are there right now. In the end it all comes down to you and what you want to do today, or tomorrow. You have to search within yourself and remind yourself of why you are here. I reverted back to my freshman year for motivation in a sense...I still want to be the only one from my family to ever graduate from a 4 year school. I found after last semester some of the things that used to motivate me, and also took some new things like proving to the ppl that care about me that I'm not a failure and that I am good enough and strong enough to do this. I may not even have anyone out there that doubts me and my abilities and skills after last semester, ppl that have always believed in me and always will who would never doubt me but I feel that I gave them a reason to doubt me, whether they do that or not I don't know, but I'm set out to erase any thought or idea anyone might have that I can't do this. That gets me out of bed everyday, I want to make people proud, I want to prove people wrong even if there isn't anyone who doesn't believe me, I want to prove to myself that I can do anything and everything that I have ever wanted to do. I think I'm done rambling and preaching for now...I don't know where all of this came from, but I guess if you don't wanna read it you don't have to. Maybe it came from all the people who have asked me how I've flipped this 180 this year, or what they should do to motivate themselves...kids, there's nothin I can say to honestly answer that, I can look back at last semester and still have no frickin idea on how I should have done things different or what I could have done to get outta the rutt...I just know now that sometimes you gotta dig deep and figure out what it is you really want, and don't let anything else bother you. You need a routine and you have to have self discipline and be able to say no and not play video games when you have things to do. Lock yourself up in your room or don't pay attention to ppl when you really need to get things done, they are your friends, they'll still be there when you are done...besides, you are here for school, they'll understand. It's very hard to put off the temptation and a lot of times its not fun, but sometimes it's what you gotta do, just another thing that comes down to you and you alone...

Much love to ya'll

4-0

Currently Playing One Fierce Beer Coaster By The Bloodhound Gang I wish I was queer so I could get chicks see related

What's up ya'll? Not too much going on here, just done w/another late night of doing what needs to be done. Turns out this week is gonna be a kind of hectic one. I've been gettin out of my routine recently which is not a good thing for me at all because then I get less done and I'm tired all the time. I know that I gotta get back into my routine before things get outta hand, we can't have a repeat of last semester! But don't worry ppl, I'm no where near anything like that right now and no I'm not slipping either. The shit will get done! It's just going to be a busy week, got two take home tests to take care of, one of them is kinda lengthy and is due Friday and the other will be due either Friday or Monday...I'm thinkin prolly Monday but I won't know that til I get it on Wednesday. So anywho, for those of you I regularly see, or those of you that I had intentions to see this week, I apologize if I have to back out of any plans but I gotta take care of things.

So this weekend, turns out it was a blast...well Saturday night anyway. Work sucked for the weekend but money is always good. Saturday night Cletus and I took off as soon as I got off work and headed up to Manhappiness. For those of you that read the Cletusmeister's site already know what took place...but for those of you that don't here we go. Actually there isn't too much to say other than it was an awesome time that involved waaaayyy too much drinking, but I'm still alive so it's all good. I got there and the drinking began, it wasn't long before I was mixing my So. Co. and wild cherry pepsi half and half...or more, I don't know I wasn't in charge of making them for the most part. So anyway, we all proceeded to get really smashed really quickly, always good times. I remember puking once but I was told that I apparently puked off the balcony as well, I honestly only remember trying to spit on the cars in the parking lot  So it wasn't until the next morning that I was informed that I finished the entire 750 of So. Co...by myself...nuff said I believe. I was amazed at the fact that I wasn't totally hung over the next day so that's a plus, just a little tummy ache most of the day which I can handle. Beats the hell out of a headache from hell! All in all it was a worth while trip and yes I do believe I remember almost all of it so I'm content.

Well all, that's all I got for now I think...might have a place to live...but it's my bedtime so I'll have to share later. Hope everyone is doing well and hangin' in there!

Peace

Currently Playing Dirty Sexy Knights in Paris By Audiovent The Energy see related

A post? What's that??? Oh wait, well, life is settling into a routine as it always does (with the exception of last semester) for me and school work is being done on a daily basis. I really don't have a lot to say, except thanks to all those who are still around and by my side even after last semester, and thanks to the help even though you all still knew when to step aside and let me figure things out for myself. As much as last semester wasn't a good thing school wise and such, it was good for me to make some realizations and try to make some changes. This semester is a complete turn around, I almost feel like its freshman year again when I actually have motivation, just hope it keeps up for all semester.

Well honestly, I don't really have much else to say, except I love these beautiful days, even if it is one for every 4 shitty days we have or whatever, it still makes me start having a hankering to do those spring type things. Oh, that and I'm lookin for a fishing buddy, someone who can bait their own hook, has a pole, and can manage the $15 for a liscense or whatever it is now. That and someone who doesn't mind wasting a couple hours just sitting and enjoying nature and a little company along with a beautiful day. This whole fishing thing will probably start taking place on Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays if the weather is nice. Class is over by 11 or 12 and I wouldn't have to be back in until 5 or 6...so afternoon's must be open...that is all, it's time for me to go play some ball. Hope everyone is doing well.

Peace